I SWEAR!

this is bullshit!

My Tumblr.

http://zamzaray.tumblr.com/

Oh yeah ;]

I could really go for one of these right now!

far too long.

It's literally been a month that i've been in this shit-hole town, "Henderson".
Oh yeah, I stupidly moved to Henderson with Joey. Dumbest decision EVER!
(btw, Henderson, Texas not Henderson NV)
Cant wait to be back in the valley already, surprisingly.
Leslie is suppose to come up on Friday, hopefully, to come get me and the boys :]
she's a life saver!

it's been a week or so..

its been a week or so since i blogged, sorry.

i've gone even lighter with the blonde! :]
as you can see <<<

Leslie bought me my first, little hookah!
it was a surprise present! i love it, it's cute and tiny!

last night was manny's birthday, and i missed the party :/
tonight is saturday, hope it all goes well.

um, i saw Deejay, hadnt seen him i YEARS! ;)
it was nice catching up, and i might see him tonight as well, mhm.

the party last saturday was more calm than i was expecting but it was a good turn out.
Timmy didnt get to play long and he was at the same place i was after...
but it all was okay, no drama, which is GOOD :) glad it happened that way.

Kinda bummed we didnt talk but oh well, better than drama taking place.
it was a good night, i wrote culo duele on coop's coop and his mom noticed, lol.
jay and him were all sweaty from the light shows.
those molly had us wiiireeddd :D
Dwight ended up opening up as well since Jimmi (DJ Swagg) quit last minute.
i made it home safe and half asleep. i passed out in dwights car after drinking those porta shots!

O M F G !

This past weekend was supa chill.
I tried DMT for the first time and it was incredible, indescribable!
Had some chill company over :)
Over all a great, chillin night.
I cut my hair as well, mostly like Dev's, cept i have a shaved side
and i'm blonde with colorrrr <333.

Looking forward to next weekend!
Hopefully there's no drama, that's the only thing.

new hairstyle

& sunday morning <3.

Fer Fuckin Sure.

This video is the shyyt.
Mac Miller - Wear My Hat.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bbhgzA98IAY

it's just not a good day.

Meh, I woke up to a screaming mother.
Her complaints: I sleep in too late and why haven't I started cleaning yet?!
what the fuckin fuck man!
I'm beggining to get really tired of this shit.
I do CLEAN, every damn day, almost all day!

3 hours later, I get a msg from Joey with another reason why is can NOT
watch the boys on his turn, this time, because Lee Roy didn't get paid.
um, last I knew, he didn't depend on Lee Roy. Lately, every time he needs
to talk to me and tell me something "important"
which is to tell me how he CAN'T watch the boys and won't be down.
I just don't want to hear it anymore. I'm done, I give up!

I hope the rest of my day isn't as shitty and actually gets better!


Anyway, aside from my shitty day so far...
Dev's new video for "In the dark" was released today on VEVO.
I love, love love, love, love, love, loved itt! <33.
Here's a link.. >>> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mgEixhE3Oms

i feel great.

Designer Drugs and Designer Friends.

New Photographs.

I'm a fireball baby.

i get money, what's funny

dolla bills in my tummy <3.

Independence Day.

Happy 4th of July everyone.
Hope has everyone has a safe yet fun-filled,
exciting and great day.
I shall be headed to the beach tmrw
to catch the firework display!
:)

Last Night.

I was super bummed last night.
i missed an event i was so looking fwd to.
My mom, in her own way,
tried to come to my rescue by
getting me some Four Lokos, lol.
I love her for trying.
She bought me a few grape flavored ones.
I gave her one to keep, so she herself could try it
and see what the fuss is all about, about 'em lokos..
She got drunk with half :)
My mom's first four loko experience!
It was funny, it made my night better, although,
it still SUCKS i didn't get to go :|

Pin-up Couture.

Buying this dress,
i fell absolutely in Loveee! :D

birthday planning, the cake.

Found the cutest birthday cake for

Christopher's 1st Birthday :)

i'm not sure how i feel about the bow but
it's perfect, Chris is my little
cookie monster!

:D

Ecstasy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-Y9qxsqtkg

Designer Drugs only HOURS away! :]

herbs.

"i smoke weed, eat yogurt" -Mac Miller.

Angels & Demons.

Great luminati film.
If you're into that sorta thing.

who is the killer?

damn, so i posted this photo on dwight's wall (facebook)somehow, the question to whom the killer would be if the woodsborro massacre would
actually take place here, in McAllen... btw, woodsborro isnt real.
there would be an endless amount of possiblities....

Last day of June.

So it's 3:33 am.

At my mom's new place, I'm livid that my apartment wasn't ready today but

i guess good things come to those who wait, let's just see how true that is later.

Today happens to be my ex-husband's / my kid's father's birthday.

He's turning 24, So Happy 24th Birthday, Jose Luis aka Joey.

I'm also in a fake engagement lol, with Jonathan from Harlingen, whom i've never met before.

Strange, spontaneous, yet exciting and hilariously funny! :)

I absolutely love late night conversations! <3.

Can't wait for Saturday!
It's gonna be hella fun, the shyytt! :)
Designer Drugs at SPI.

Cigarette.

So, I came across this photograph of Marilyn Monroe last night.

& it reminded me of one of mine and it's similarities.

I found it fascinating! ha.

I thought I'd share it with the world :)

Update.

Lots has happened since December 2nd, 2010.

I turned 20 years old, December 17th, celebrated at Kave Stage Bar with friends and family.

January, i started working at hooters McAllen as a hooter's girl (waitress).

I also met Rick Garcia at the end of that month. Right after I got my 2nd tattoo on my back.

It's not done yet, it's a work in progress... but i loveee it!

It's suppose to be a zombie Apocalypse pretty much, with Kat Von D as a sexy pin up, zombie girl eating a heart, as you can see :)

February, I met Leslie Clarke. We dated, broke up and stayed good friends since then.

March, I went blonde! I was hoping to be bleach blonde by Spring Break but i settled for a Dark Blonde.

I attended NSN with my sister, Leslie, Manny, Rick.. ect.

Rick and I also broke up the week Spring Break started.

Oriol stayed with us that week, visiting from Mexico.

My sister and I also attended Tiesto at SPI that month as well.

Spring Break was that month and it was INSANE, to say the least! :D

Definitely can NOT wait til Spring Break 2012! I will be 21 next time around.

At the end of this month, I met Timmy Lyons <3.

Things with this boy hit off really well, I was soo shy!

That normally never happens.

I really liked him.

It was so cute when he finally asked me out :D

I couldn't stop smiling.

And after every time I would spend with him, I would tell my sister everything like a little school girl.

I had the biggest crush :]

Things stayed great for awhile.

Then we broke up

May was the Grand Opening of our Restaurant and Lounge Bar, Zajja's in Downtown McAllen.

I started bartending there as well, Tuesdays through Saturdays.

I went back to being a bleach blonde and adding colors to my hair again.

Timmy and I got back together after work, after a party at Ken's Apt.

Oh, and i met mercury again that night too.

June 2011. Crazy Month! June 1st was Timmy's 21st Birthday and that's the day things went sour.

This photo with the pink and purple, i took before heading to John's Party (summer's first.)

I was suppose to work that day but I got fired. That day is the day, Timmy and I broke up again for good.

I met Jake, Cooper, Jay, Jakeline, Dwight and some other people that day too.

It was pretty crazy, ended up at a crack house lol, inside joke, got home hella latee! Goodness :)

It's been a bit of drama since that day but things are well.

Met more people, hung out with Oriol since he moved back,

And today, June 28th, I'm still packing and getting ready to move into my own apartment

with my little sister, stef. Things are looking good and hopefully they stay good.

I'm rockin my shaved side with purple and aqua these days and staying positive :)

Waiting for this week to be over and welcome July.

For this weekend is 4th of July weekend.

I'm super excited and looking forward to Designer Drugs July 2nd, with stef, tron, jay and jackie :)